It’s Sunday and I am happy to report that I survived my second Thanksgiving holiday weekend without Tim. I hadn’t been looking forward to the weekend at all because Thanksgiving at the Veneys had always been a really huge event with lots of great food cooked by Tim. In spite of my sadness, there was one thing I was looking forward to – our first Thanksgiving dinner that Kim, Kendal and I would have at the Gaylord Restaurant in National Harbor. The food at the buffet was endless and awesome!! After that I spent a few hours with Mom and we had such a great time looking out the window and reading magazines and the Thanksgiving card I gave her.
But the main thing I was looking forward to during my four day weekend was going to Chesaco RV to pick up a replacement for Memory Maker II. On Tuesday on my way to York, PA to give a presentation, I went back to the RV dealership where Tim and I had purchased Memory Maker in 2014 and picked out a 24 foot beauty that felt as if it was made for me as soon as I stepped into it. I was so happy to be back to Chesaco again, AND my salesman’s name was Tim. He wasn’t there when we bought our first one, but several people at the dealership still remembered my Tim. They treated me like family and gave me an amazing trade in deal for MMII.
By the time I picked the new RV up on Friday morning, I had already named her Joy! On the way home I even took the back roads! Since the RV is so short, she turns on a dime, and is truly amazing! I started to cry on the drive because I felt a peace come over me. I was driving a new RV that was just my size and I knew I’d never feel lonely in it. One thing I had never told anyone was that when I was in Memory Maker II alone in my room, it was such a long way to the front of the coach. When I looked up at the front toward the living and dining area, I felt so lonely. All of that space, 31 feet of it, just for me. Of course I bought it for when the kids come with me, but when they weren’t there I felt lost and alone in all that space. And at times, especially in bad weather MM II was scary to drive. After Kendal fell out of her bunk bed in July and broke her collar bone, and we had a minor accident on the way home, I knew I’d be trading MM II in before the next camping season.
With MM II I always stayed on the main roads, so that I could manage the 31 feet without difficulty. Now with Joy, I can focus on the views, take the back roads, and enjoy all of the small towns that Tim and I loved to stop in and walk around. I can even park Joy on the street if I need to. For most of Saturday I packed and added all of the personal touches to Joy and before church this morning, I sat in Joy with a cup of coffee, looking out of the windows feeling very much at “home”. Tim’s picture and favorite hat sit in their proper places in Joy, and I didn’t feel alone at all.
I’m so looking forward to spending time with Kim and Kendal in Joy, but I’m also looking forward to being alone, just me out on the road less traveled learning more about me and my life’s journey along the way.
This is the largest purchase I’ve ever made in my life without Tim, and I’m thrilled with my decision to buy something just for me, that feels so right to me…Something that I truly deserve … Tim always said I was always doing things for others but I never do anything for myself… So this time I did, and I can even hear Tim cheering! So here’s to me and Joy and exploring new places and visiting new and old friends in my home on wheels. Who knows where we will end up, but it’s going to be great! If you see me and Joy driving by, please wave! Invite me in for coffee or dessert too.. I’d be happy to come!