A monumental event occurred in my life this past weekend!! I co-facilitated a weekend retreat with my Rector and frienily (friends who are family) Paul Roberts Abernathy as part of a class called Love & Forgiveness that we developed. It was great in so many ways – the two of us teaching together for the first time worked like clockwork, the group of class participants were simply incredible, the sharing and bonding among us all was indescribable and the weather at our beach retreat was nothing short of spectacular!! If that was all that happened, it would have been more than enough! Yet that wasn’t the monumental event!
As a teacher and trainer, I like to think that I am always in control AND under control!! But this weekend, even though I was one of the facilitators, I may have learned more than anyone else. The most important lesson I learned was that the weekend wasn’t about being in control. it was about letting things come as they may with (here comes my new favorite phrase) No Expectations. My actual Revelation was one that I never saw coming!!
One part of the weekend called for the facilitators to share a personal story about forgiveness. When it was my turn, I shared a story about my sister, and how despite the difficulties in our relationship I forgave her (and myself) before she died from MS in 2011. I didn’t have ANY trouble writing down the key words I wanted to say during the class, but during the actual sharing of my story I started to cry. Huh????? Me, crying during a class!! What was that about?? Isn’t that unprofessional?? Before the end of the retreat, I discovered that the crying was about me letting go of stuff I was obviously STILL holding on to… it was about me loving and caring for myself, and it was about me allowing everyone to embrace and love me during and after my story. It was monumental and life-changing!!
i believe everyone in attendance felt the weekend was special. But I wondered if anyone besides me felt lighter, unburdened and bursting with excitement by Sunday afternoon (even more than my normal Spunkiness)!! I’ve always felt that I have great training and facilitator skills, but this weekend I also learned that it’s perfectly fine if I bring a large dose of authenticity to the table as well! This weekend for me was definitely about Forgiveness, but it was even more about Love!